Goddess in hiding

So this past weekend I went down to Dayton to work with Dave L. He is wonderful! And i must say for my first outdoor nudes I am very happy with the results. We went to two different locations to shoot. Both were just breathtaking. Definetly nothing like that up here is Northern Ohio.

Well Not much time to write but I did want to share a couple of my favorites from that shoot!

The monster that lives insiide me

So on Saturday as I said my last post I had a blast, hung out to many people that I hold near and dear to me, as well as got the chance to work with many very talented models and photographers.
I really did have a great time. Then on Sunday came home, and did the Sunday thing. (Layed around, ate some food, cleaned the house, etc.) So this week's project was the basement. We did get it all finished as far as going through the crap that was no longer needed. However during that process I found pictures from my first surgery that made me sick instantly. There are just somethings that have happened to me that I just havent been able to deal with yet. And that is one of them.

It is kind of like haveing a monster that likes in your mind, always waiting to step foward out of the shadows and pounce on you when you are weak. I hate the way I feel when I think about those weeks leading up to and directly after that surgery. Talk about a mindf*ck in a handbasket.

The pictures that I took with dark angel kind of made me think about that monster that lives inside of me so here are a couple from that set.

Submissive Adventures

This weekend was a lot of fun! I got to work with alot of photographers that I have worked with in the past, as well as a few that I have not. All in all I think that this group shoot may have been the best one for me yet!

I would first like to start by saying thank you to all the photographers that I did get a chance to work with. I am sure that we made some great images this weekend. I have started to get some of the images back, and I must say the pictures that were taken with Ayden ( my best friend are my favorite so far). There are two sets. One by submissive tales, where we role played dom/sub, and for once I got to be me and play the sub.










The second with the wonderfull Gary M, where she did her first nude set. Turns out she is awesome at it. I hope she keeps it up. The photos that we have gotten back from gary are simply breathtaking. I am actually going to put all my favorite pictures by gary in a book soon. He has taken so many wonderful pictures of me that I would like to showcase them a little more.



So there you have it here are a few of my favorites that I have received from this weekend.
I will have many more coming in soon, as well as having 2 more shootings later this week, and possibly one this evening.

Adventures to the dark side of my personality

So this weekend was another weekend of shooting fun at the CAC. I shot with many photographers, many of them new, and had a blast with all of them. I am already recieving a few of my photo sets. From what I have seen it was a productive weekend indeed.

These photos are by Clint from Springheel, I am calling them " The bad peice that reaides in everyone". Basically it was supposed to show the difference in one persons personality the good ( played by Kristin) and the evil (played by yours truly). The first photo shows what the good enjoys doing, and the bad being annoyed and bored. The second shows the bad sneaking up behind the good and scaring her. The third is showing the bad doing what she does best. The final picture shows the good side finally fighting back against the bad side.

I really enjoyed this set. It was a lot of fun. I can't wait to hear what you all have to say about them.

Exotcia

This weekend was a blast. The Exotica convention was in Detroit over this past weekend. People from all walks of life getting together to celebrate their love, weather it be new or old, of fetish's and alternative lifestyles. It was amazing. I went to a BSDM 101 class with a black dom... she was awesome. Learned alot from her, and got a few great laughs by her stories. Watch many performances, a flesh pull, and went to a masquerade ball. I had an outfit that was to die for.

The cincher was made by my amazing Andi. I love her... she is so freaking awesome, and I have been telling her that. I will try and get pictures up from the ball itself up soon. I had an absolute blast.

Went up there with Rob and Troy, and once I got up there met up with JJ plush, Eric Cain, Fuzzytek, Big Lew, Ralf, Sam, Chris, and the whole Chaos crew.

I highly reccommend that anyone who didn't go this time definetly check it ut next time around.

Beauty

So growing up I learned that beauty is more than just skin deep, but I also learned that you must like what you look like in order to feel truly beautiful. Beauty is a funny thing, each person views beauty just a little bit, or in some cases alot different than the next person. To me my beauty was seen on the outside, but no one really got to know the person inside and just clumped me in with all the other pretty faces in the crowd. Much like the song lyrics Marilyn Manson wrote, " How does it feel to be one of the beautiful people?"

I do like that people think I am beautiful, although sometimes I think I am not. Then this weekend my whole view of myself changed. I took a look at myself in my photos from the past few years and saw how much I have grown and evolved, how much i had accomplished, the kinds of obstacles that I had overcome, and the people who have come and gone, and I really started to see my inner beauty.

The picture above is one such picture that I took a look at. This photo was done by the awesomely spectacular Andi. I love this picture. I feel so beautiful, as well as sexy in it. (Which is something I don't feel that often about myself) I really fell attractive in it.

Although I am a strong individual I do still have crap for self esteem. It is getting better though. I am becoming more comfortable in my own skin. It is pictures like these that I look at and wonder to myself who is that girl in those pictures, and then I remember it is me.

Thank you to everyone who has had some effect on who I have become. You all have made more of a difference in my life than you may realize.

so...

Recently I have been shooting alot. No time really to add anything right now, but i would like to take a second and say i finally bought one of the book i am published in and I think that it is crap. Not the content, but the print quality is atrocious. I am usually not overly critical but this was just bad.

I am hoping that the next time I am put in a book i might actually be given one also rather than spending the money i am helping a photographer make. I know that everyone must make money, and I am cool with that but i feel a bit cheated in this instance because the quality was just not what it should have been.

Oh well I will post pictures as soon as I get 3 more seconds to myself.