Monday, April 23, 2007


So growing up I learned that beauty is more than just skin deep, but I also learned that you must like what you look like in order to feel truly beautiful. Beauty is a funny thing, each person views beauty just a little bit, or in some cases alot different than the next person. To me my beauty was seen on the outside, but no one really got to know the person inside and just clumped me in with all the other pretty faces in the crowd. Much like the song lyrics Marilyn Manson wrote, " How does it feel to be one of the beautiful people?"

I do like that people think I am beautiful, although sometimes I think I am not. Then this weekend my whole view of myself changed. I took a look at myself in my photos from the past few years and saw how much I have grown and evolved, how much i had accomplished, the kinds of obstacles that I had overcome, and the people who have come and gone, and I really started to see my inner beauty.

The picture above is one such picture that I took a look at. This photo was done by the awesomely spectacular Andi. I love this picture. I feel so beautiful, as well as sexy in it. (Which is something I don't feel that often about myself) I really fell attractive in it.

Although I am a strong individual I do still have crap for self esteem. It is getting better though. I am becoming more comfortable in my own skin. It is pictures like these that I look at and wonder to myself who is that girl in those pictures, and then I remember it is me.

Thank you to everyone who has had some effect on who I have become. You all have made more of a difference in my life than you may realize.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007


Recently I have been shooting alot. No time really to add anything right now, but i would like to take a second and say i finally bought one of the book i am published in and I think that it is crap. Not the content, but the print quality is atrocious. I am usually not overly critical but this was just bad.

I am hoping that the next time I am put in a book i might actually be given one also rather than spending the money i am helping a photographer make. I know that everyone must make money, and I am cool with that but i feel a bit cheated in this instance because the quality was just not what it should have been.

Oh well I will post pictures as soon as I get 3 more seconds to myself.